I took a break from posting on this blog for the past two
months. There were a couple of reasons
why, but, mainly we were busy! I determined it best to fix my brain on keeping
on task of all the things on my list. Not that I am busier than other people…I most
definitely am not. However, I had a lot on my mind, things I wanted to sort
through mentally and physically.
Last year, when I wrote at around the end of the 2017, it
was about intention, and more specifically to intend to live with joy. I wrote about choosing a word, if I could choose just one, my word for
2017 was JOY, my word for 2018 was INTENT.
So, now, with the coming and going of my birthday, when I
usually think about such things, and the sabbatical I took from posting, in
order to sort through some stuff, I find myself again wondering about a word,
just one word, that would be my driving thought for 2019, adding to the cloth I
weave each day. (Here’s last years post,
if you would care to read again https://cindiswindow.blogspot.com/2017/12/word.html
)
So many things have happened in 2018 that cause me to really
consider my 2019. First was the big move back “home” this summer of my middle
child with her husband and three of our five grandkids. Having them here, living just around the
corner, has been a gift. We have helped with
the kids as she and her husband finished up the sale of their house in
Indianapolis. I have done school
pick-up, and dance class, and attended a cross country meet or two. It has been glorious, as well as has made me
miss our son, who moved from Seattle to Los Angeles this year, and our youngest
and her family of four even more.
The second big change is coming soon…husband’s retirement on
December 31. I am both looking forward
to it and am anxious about it. All the
jokes apply. He is worried about the
budget. I am worried about having him here, all day, every day. I mean, he deserves the rest and relaxation,
no doubt or question, but what am I going to do with him all day? We had a few appointments and “real talks” related
to social security and financial planning which took up large parts of a couple
weeks. While I was able to skate through
most of those conversations, it was taking its toll on my husband who needs to
feel secure in his decisions and some of the suggestions we heard were
uncertain for him. I don’t think he slept
at all, to be honest, all through October!
Which brings me to another change. I retired early and completely back in 2014
or so but recently accepted a contract for working from home part-time. Too many details to get into here but some of
my October busy-ness was preparing for this opportunity. Setting a schedule, training, trying to get
organized…all that was a time burner. I
am just getting all that under some control as its taken a while to warm up the
ol’ memory banks and remember how to work like a professional not to mention
reclaiming the office space, which is slow going.
Life is all about the twists and turns in our journey,
though, and starting each day from where you are. It’s a hard lesson sometimes, not looking
back, not regretting earlier life decisions or wishing you had done something
differently. Accepting that, hey, you are here, now, so go-ahead, make the changes and get going.
2019, folks…Adjust
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